sometimes I wonder if having someone is worth all the hype.

they only seem to let you down.

I'm over the disappointments in life.

& I think I need stability.

 

Eric Hutchinson - "Breakdown More"

"I can't keep my beat when I don't have you.. I can't shake my sins when you won't come through.."

saying goodbye..

this one has been much harder than the first

In The Garden - Elvis

I come to the garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses, and the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

Stars

such a beautiful song.. if you haven't heard it..you need to listen right now!

Grace Potter & The Nocturnals - "Stars"

Go with him..

The Beatles - "Anna (Go With Him)"

For all these years I've wondered why every song with my name in it seems to have something to do with her breaking the boys heart..

but now I think I get it..

Maybe Anna means "indecisive" 

I'm not sure but I am sure that I no longer have a boyfriend..

but I didn't want to waste his time.. let's be honest.. 

I don't think all my wounds have been healed..but he was a great band aid in a time of need.

I just want to take a moment to thank him for everything he did for me.. Lord knows these past four months have been anything but easy..

I also want to wish him the best of luck with all of his dreams

and 

I hope that some cute little girl will come along and teach him to be the best that he can be.. and love him when he is at his worse.

Talk about a roller coaster ride!

It's alright! It's for the best!

I love y'all and I am so thankful for everything that has happened!

peace & love

I'll Fly Away, Oh Glory..

 Singing this hymn made me cry like a baby..this is where I lost it..

"I'll Fly Away"- Johnny Cash
"Just a few more weary days and then, I'll fly away, to a land where joy should never end..I'll fly away.."

here are some other songs they played that hit home with emotions of my grandpa..

"My Way" - Frank Sinatra
"And now the end is here..and so I face the final curtain call.."

 

"Moon River"- Frank Sinatra

"Two drifters off to see the world, there's such a lot of world to see, we're after the rainbows end, waiting round the bend, my huckleberry friend, moon river & me.."

Getting over this isn't going to be easy..but it will happen..some day!

Update

I happy to report that I am back in my college town..

I am also happy to report that Alabama beat LSU

the cutest thing happened after the game.. my pawpaw called my mom while we were all screaming and celebrating.. so when I answered I was screaming and I realized he was all choked up (emotional)..

he was so cute.. he told me that he was back in my Memaws room 

(who is only with us physically unless she is saying my name to the hospice nurses)  

but he was back there in her room watching the game..holding her hand..telling her we would win it

we would make it..we would beat them..

there were 5 things my Memaw loved more than life itself

1. God 2. Her Family 3. Alabama Football 4. Atlanta Braves 5. Sunflowers

I loved that story..just because of what has happened to my family this past week.

I have been so blessed.

I talked to my Grandma Friday night on the phone.. she sounded a little better..but it made me emotional..it made my dad emotional too..

However, after talking to my dad on the phone tonight while I was on the road back to school.. he called me once again to make sure I made it back safely.. 

Maybe this will bring us all back together..

God knows we need it.

peace & love

Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World

"May angels lead you in.."

I'll be missing you..

I received my first angel today.

My grandpa passed away last night in his sleep.. he was sitting in his chair.. as always.

That little lady in the picture, my Grandma, is the reason why I can't hold it together

everything she did was for him

everything.

what do you do when your everything is gone?

He was her first and only love.

I am happy to say through our ups and downs the last time I saw him was the best time.

He held my hand tightly and told me he was proud of all my accomplishments.

He had never said that to be before that moment.

I guess God knew.

He always does.

This is my first death to deal with so y'all bare with me.

It's not easy

and these emotions come in strong, almost tidal, waves.

As I have said many times before, be thankful.

I never expected to get that phone call this morning.

But I am thankful to be with my family now, and that I can keep a positive memory in my head about him.

And now I know I can talk to my Grandpa whenever.. I just have to ask for the big man upstairs ear and I know my Grandpa will be there standing beside him listening, watching, protecting all of us.

I love you Grandpa, and I am so glad you are finally peacefully resting with God..look out for us up there.. 

Ok...so y'all know I have a boy band problem..
but these boys will always hold the key to my heart..
and I love their new single!

(all the backgrounds that they pose in front of are their album covers from over the years.. SO CUTE.)

enjoy.

McFly- Love Is Easy

well...

Sorry I'm a terrible blogger..

but here's what I have learned while I haven't been blogging.

1. I need a roommate for next year

2. I am 3 test and 2 papers away from being done with History classes as an undergrad (are those angels I hear singing?)

3. I am not very tough when it comes to a 5 year old girl crying

4. I am never buying dog supplies from ebay again

5. I have the best friends  I could ask for

6. I also have the best family

7. I have a lot to be thankful for..

and number seven is the one that I have really been trying to stress to those around me..

last night while on the phone someone was complaining about how after a week (and a few rare occurrences) there was no car in the driveway for said person..

and I had to stop them in the middle of talking.

some people don't even have enough money to afford gas to put in the car..

some don't even know what driving a car is like.

I told this person that they should be thankful that they even have the opportunity to be upset about not getting a car this week.

so let's be thankful.

it's fall..

almost thanksgiving..

so be thankful you have a car

be thankful you have an opportunity to go to college

be thankful you have a HIGH SCHOOL diploma

and if all else fails

be thankful you woke up

be thankful you're breathing

be thankful you have access to a computer to read this blog (hahah just kidding)

but seriously

don't take anything for granted.

I keep stressin that but it becomes more and more obvious with every life lesson that comes about. 

You're my song..

"my sweet home Alabama, I can sing you all night long..you're my red red wine..learning to fly..baby we were born to run..cause you're my song.."

OH. MY. GOSH.

A Rocket To The Moon.

I am OBSESSED!! This is amazing..and it helps that he mentions the beatles, sweet home Alabama, and born to run..!!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!

enjoy!

A Rocket To The Moon - You're My Song

It's fine by me if you never leave..

love this song

busy week ahead!

I get to see Layken tomorrow! Woo!

In other news I have a TON of stuff to do tonight and instead I'm blogging.

What can you do?

I want each & every one of you to take this second

RIGHT NOW

to think about something that you're thankful for today.

got it?

did it make you smile? 

I hope so. 

I think that's going to be my new project..

thinking of something to be thankful for everyday and taking a moment to appreciate it.

so I won't be saying to myself " you don't know what you've got till it's gone"

well I think that's all for now

peace & love

Working Weekend

so I came home to work this weekend...

funny thing about college students.. we spend WAY too much money on things that we shouldn't..haha but it's all worth it in the end right?!

 I haven't even informed Jessie that I am in town (sorry Jess..I'll be back for fall break)

Alabama won! Yay!

Auburn is winning as of now (yay?)

I love all of you so much and I promise to blog more this week cause I'm going to have to be writing papers all week which calls for me being on my computer! 

peace & love

Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got till it's gone

I woke up to some heart breaking news this morning..

one of my ZTA sisters moms lost her battle last night to cancer.

Molly also graduated high school with me and Zeta had a special place in her heart because her mom had breast cancer & that is our philanthropy. 

Molly IS SUCH a good person & her mother was too.. I hate that bad things happen to good people..but I'm convinced God was running out of angels and Molly's mom was the best pick out of all of us here on Earth.

My mom also worked with you mom at the local elementary school.

I called my mom crying my eyes out yesterday (because I found out her mom relapsed)

and

I called my mom today crying my eyes out more because I had found out she passed away.

Molly is an only child.

That being said.. I just wanted to remind myself to be thankful of my healthy mom & also be thankful of my siblings..

I'm not sure that they know I love them..but this is my new goal.. appreciating what I've got..

anyway on a brighter note 

I'm off to ATL

for this little princesses birthday

wish me luck!

peace & love

Monday...

soo.. it's Monday.. 

& I wanted to blog now because I know this week is about to get CRAZY.

anyway this weekend was AMAZING :) I got to spend it with almost all my favorites at one point or another and I could not be more blessed to have amazing friend

this weekend I am headed to Atlanta with Robin & some of the ZTA group for our friend Shannon's 21st birthday! She's the baby of the group (and has already graduated college... overachiever)

hopefully I will have pictures later for y'all 

but until then I am off.

Wednesday is my big day.. 

First test

First time I meet the kindergartener that I am mentoring this semester

EEK 

peace & love

one look at that smile

and I'm all yours.

will you just smile at me again?

so happy lately.. too good to be true almost.

Tuesday.

been thinking about a lot of things lately.. but yeah. 

how do we feel about this hair cut on me? I'm thinking yes.

Friday the 13th

so I am the most superstitious person. ever.

and usually I avoid this day like it is going out of style

but

not today

and I am so thankful

I'm thankful for a lot this week.

:)

Smashmouth - "I'm A Believer" 

"I thought love was only true in fairy tales.. meant for someone else but not for me"

I think it's time to wave the white flag.. and wait for football season

my hometown sucks sometimes.. most of the time.. if it wasn't so historical it would suck all the time.

who can tell I woke up on the wrong side of the bed?!

get me back to college.. I just want to be a student for the rest of my life.

Zac Brown Band - "Knee Deep" (ft. Jimmy Buffett) 

"wrote a note said "be back in a minute".. bought a boat and I sailed off in it.. don't think anybody's gonna miss me anyway."

Tilly and the Wall - "Lost Girls"

"girl, I know the hall looks dark when you're all alone." 

bring on the rain..

didn't get called in to work today at all..

and I spent way too much money on dresses instead.. 

but these two are officially mine..

yay!!!

Share Some Songs Sunday

haven't done this in a while.. haha here are some songs..

they apply to life right now.. 

Andy Grammer - "Keep Your Head Up"

"This is just a journey..drop all your worries..you are gonna turn out just fine"

Gary Allen - "Watching Airplanes"

"Trying to figure out which one you might be on.. & why you don't love me anymore" 

(the ex bought a plane... he's an official pilot..makes me think maybe I should have believed him more)

Eric Church - "Springsteen"

"When you think about me.. do you think about 17? Funny how a melody sounds like a memory.. like a soundtrack to a July Saturday night.."

(It's hard to NOT think about you & all those summers I thought we would settle down together if you keep trying to come back into my life when you have a "not real" girlfriend & a lot has changed since either one of us were 17)

sorry it's been a really weird time for me.. all things that I thought I could keep in the past showed up last week... 

well here's to the present and meeting new people that may make an influence on my future.

woah.

A wave of single-ness just hit me tonight.
    Guess that means I'll have to make a friend tomorrow night w/ Jessie for our girls night out..
         nothing a few drinks only 21 year olds can buy won't fix :)
In other news: my little sisters dog (Sadie) HATES sleeping in the crate but I can't sleep with her cause I feel like I can't move around at night.. so I am off to fall asleep to the musical whining of Sadie Maze for probably the next hour.

W.O.W. 2 blog post in 1 day.. I must be in need of a friend.. that's a boy.. haha :)

YOLO

(photocredit)

so today at work this couple came in.. they were both deaf. 

The other person that I worked with "couldn't handle trying to take their order"

so I gladly decided to help.

I can honestly say it was one of the most amazing feelings... I know it's silly but they have to deal with things like that every day.. but today.. I got to make sure that they enjoyed their restaurant experience and they looked really happy about and it made really happy..

I don't know why.. I don't know how to explain it but helping people ROCKS and having patients ROCKS.. and I also want thank them..for being patient with me.

& also I wanted to thank them for making me thankful.. I live such an easy life.. I can hear, I can see, I have 10 fingers & 10 toes.. 

I guess todays lesson is BE THANKFUL! You don't know what you've got till it's gone!

peace & love 

happy-go-lucky

things that make me happy:

smiles

Bear

my family

my friends

cute boys @ the gym

working out

desserts

wine

tv shows

vlogging

margaritas 

new friends

the 4th of July

clothes

shoes

friendship bracelets 

nail polish 

jewelry 

just wanted to list these things for when I come off this cloud that I have been on.

in other news.. heard this song at the gym the other day.. it's been stuck in my head.. kinda fits this post

Brett Dennen - "Comeback Kid"

love y'all

stay beautiful

(photocredit)

it's been a blah past few days for this one..

but I've been doing some thinking.

I am going to start trying this new give a person a compliment a day thing.

because today I had a complete stranger give me one and I have been nothing but smiles since..

maybe you should try it too?
what harm could it do? if anything it will make the world a better place.

it will make someone smile..or maybe bring them out of a crappy week.

so thank you random person for making my day.. I hope someone returns the favor to you & I hope I can help someone else!

I won't lie. I'm no daddy's girl..but every girl needs her dad.

Late August/ early September 2011 I received a phone call telling me that my dad had suffered from a heart attack and was going to have to have open heart surgery.. 5 bypasses.

after 2 weeks of hard praying my dad finally woke up from what he thought was a terrible dream.

2 weeks of sleepless nights for me.

2 weeks of not breathing on his own.

2 weeks that caused my dad to change forever.

I'm not going to say that he isn't the way he used to be.. because he has his days when he is MY dad..but other days he's just some man who calls me his daughter.. he's not the man I grew up knowing and loving..and learning how to be sarcastic with.

He gave me my sense of humor..my lack of being able to express my emotions until one little thing makes me explode..he gave me his nose.. and his eyebrows.. and his chicken legs.

I love him.. and I am so thankful that I could call him today and wish him a happy fathers day.

sorry for the emotional post..haha

so since I didn't do share some songs sunday.. I've decided I'm going to have a Thrilling Tunes Thursday..(haha still working on that title)

anyway

I've been singing this song all day so..

Ryan Adams - "Answering Bell"

"but I'm just saying hi, to your answering bell"

Colbie Caillat - "Favorite Song (ft.Common)"

"I want to be your favorite song..you can turn it up.. play me all night long.. I want to be your melody flowing through your head when you think of me."

Gavin Degraw - "Candy"

"we have our lives to bare, our bags still burden, but we just buy and wear the plastic version of love, hope... understanding we can't survive on candy.."

new hair...

well.. I think it's safe to say that the the girls of Pretty Little Liars have had a huge influence on this decision. 

I think I want to cut my hair short.

yes? no?

I say yes.. & I want to put the red back in my hair..

then call it a new start along with my last year of college..

:)

fresh new start.

bought a dog.

joined a gym.

might change my hair.

life is good.

teen mom.

I AM SO OVER

being told that I need to take care of my SIBLINGS and my little sisters DOG.

not mine.

my little sisters.

this is OUT OF CONTROL.

I did not have 3 children and I did not decide to buy Madison a dog.

MY MOTHER DID.

yes, I understand she kept Bear while I was gone for THREE days.

but I have kept her other two children, plus the dog (Sadie), plus myself

alive for HOW LONG.

I'M 21 not 45.

sorry for the rant but this is getting SUPER old.

Eh. Sorry.

I'm a terrible blogger..

hahaha

in honor of my carrying on I have to songs for you, the reader, to listen to.

You're welcome in advance.

Violent Femmes - "Blister In The Sun"

"when I'ma walkin I strut my stuff..

let me go on.. like I blister in the sun.."

fun. - "Carry On"

sometimes I miss you..

& then I am reminded that you lied to me for the whole time we were together.

& then I get mad

& then I don't miss you anymore.

NEED THESE TOMS

Saturday! Saturday! Saturday!

work tonight

ATLANTA tomorrow to see these fine lookin fellas in concert

woo!

I just wanted this documented.

this photo is from 2010.

it is now 2012.. and when everyone starts wearing American flag stuff I want all of you to come back here and thank me... Because I told EVERYONE it was going to be big one day and no one would listen

& now

NOW
Urban Outfitters has a WHOLE section dedicated to American Pride.

I'm just saying.

2010

& it's now 2012

Just wanted to document this before EVERY girl on sorority row started wearing American flag things...just like the feathers.

Share Some Songs Sunday

Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros - "Carries On"

Eric Hutchinson - "Outside Villanova"

"she says she's so excited to play some groom and bride with me but I'm undecided so I need to be told that she's only kidding.. when I'm sleeping by her side."

The Avett Brothers - "The Perfect Space"

"I wanna have friends that I can trust.. That love me for the man I've become not the man that I was.."

Firefall - "You Are The Woman"

"I saw your face and that's the last I've seen of my heart.."

This has been an interesting week...but I can honestly say I have learned from it! I am about to finish editing the vlog, upload that, sit down in my bed, open my notebook, and make my list..

List of..

Things I want to do this summer

Things I want to do before I graduate college

Things I want to buy with the money I make

Things I need to see in a boy before I decide he is worth my time.

I love list!

until then...as Robin says..

I'm off to kiss some frogs! 

HAPPY SUNDAY! 

big weekend!

well to start...

Today I'm taking Bear to the vet for the first time! I'm nervous for him! 

& 

 Tomorrow I will be attending the wedding for these two..

can't believe that he is getting MARRIED! I remember the day he told me he found the girl that he would be with for the rest of his life.. I thought he was crazy.. but he proved me wrong!

I am so happy for them! They are great together & I know they will live happily ever after! 

anyway.. sorry for not blogging much.. Bear & work have taken over! 

So excited for having Sunday/Monday to myself!

my two favorites

Bear & Teddy

:)

life is good.

Share Some Songs Sunday

I love my momma. She has taught me so much & I am blessed to have her. Thankful & appreciative are understatements.

She's my best friend

General Lee :)

Happy Mothers Day!

anyway.. I saw Eric Hutchinson last night so I'll be posting more of him.. 

(and I got his set list)

and some Hangout artist songs :) SUPER PUMPED! HURRY UP FRIDAY

Eric Hutchinson - "Food Chain"

"Just look around..everybody's on the food chain, funny.. but from day to day we get from bottom to top, and if you get lost, just start over again..."

Eric Hutchinson - "Oh"

"and I'm never sure what I'm living for but it's always on my mind.."

Eric Hutchinson - "First Place"

"you started out, you were just a blank space & you started out you were just an ordinary face.."

Alabama Shakes - "Boys and Girls"

"why can't we be best friends anymore? they say a friend can't be between a girl & a boy"

Switchfoot - "Dare You To Move"

"the tension is here.. between who you are and who you could be.. 

between how it is and how it should be.."

Dispatch - "The General"

Dave Matthews Band - "Everyday"

"all you need is, all you want is, all you need is love..."

headed to the beach..

up late packing for my beach adventure tomorrow with Robin, Ashley, and (hopefully) Shannon! I am ready to relax, get some sun, spend way too much money, eat yummy food, and meet new people. That's my goal.. meet one new person a week? I think being in the restaurant this summer can help with that..but I want to try it.. :)

I put Bear in his crate tonight and it literally KILLED me to hear him cry..

but I gotta do it.. 

:(

I miss my pooh bear already.

anyway!

Back to making playlist & making sure I packed everything!

Goodnight 

Share Some Songs Sunday

well.. I just saw The Lucky One..cried like a baby and I have decided if I ever find someone willing to settle down with me..this will be our song for our photo montage..
(also I liked what Layken did with the whole these are the lyrics that stick out to me thing..
so I'm going to be a copy cat and do that for some of these..)

Brandi Carlile - "The Story"
"but these stories don't mean anything, if you've got no one to tell them to..
 it's true, I was made for you"

Eric Hutchinson - "Breakdown More"

A Fine Frenzy - "What I Wouldn't Do"

"Never learned to climb a tree but I would try, just to show you what I'd done. 
Oh what I wouldn't do.. If I had you babe.."

Eric Hutchinson - "Not There Yet"
"You've got to hit rock bottom if you want to come out on top.."

Brett Dennen - "The One Who Loves You The Most"

"when you forgive your imperfections.. and you look to see your true reflection.. 

you will be the one who loves you the most."

alright I'm stopping there.. sorry these are short but this cute little guy

wants to take a nap.. and I'm okay with that!

HAPPY SUNDAY!

I'm going to the beach tomorrow!

almost there...

one more final and I'll be finished and then Bear will be mine, Robin & Shannon will have college degrees and I will be a Senior.

Things are about to get weird.

Ready for summer..

Sad I had to tell Tom bye on Tuesday :( I'll miss the Brit! 

Maybe we will keep up on facebook or something.

anyway

Goal for this week: do what makes ME and now BEAR happy.

if someone has a problem with it then I have a problem with them.

SUMMER YOU'RE ONLY A DAY A WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Share Some Songs Sunday

so in honor of finals week.. and me getting through my "Anna gets to work doubles Friday and Saturday then has to realize she is never going to get married while sitting at a wedding Sunday" these songs are here to make me feel better.. hope they make you feel better too!

FINALS!

YEAH!

The Eagles - "Take It Easy"

We The Kings - "The Middle (Cover)"

Jason Mraz - "The Remedy"

Bob Marley - "Three Little Birds"

FINISHED WITH PAPERS!

Sorry but I have never been so happy!

I am officially done with all my papers for the semester, except for the ones that I have to write in class for my exams!

HOLY COW!

2 classes & 4 finals away from sweet summer time!

work from today at 3:30 to basically Saturday night at 11

this should be the most ridiculous weekend ever.

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!

:)

Happy Thursday!

Hump Day

so naturally instead of writing my 5 page paper I am blogging.

but I just wanted to say a few things...

1. This is my last week of classes before I am a SENIOR in college. ew.

2. I am 3 papers, 3 work days, & 5 test away from getting Bear (which means being done with school)

3. Tonight is my last free night of the semester.

4. I am ready for summer.

Also, I need to continue working on my New Years Resolution (surprisingly I have done a lot!) but there are a few I added after becoming single.. so I need to focus on those.. and my new dog on May 5th.

bring on the sunshine. bring on the concerts. bring on the money making.

Are you there summer? It's me, Anna.

Share Some Songs Sunday

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

For tradition purposes... I dedicate this first song to the Earth..

Jackie DeShannon - "Put A Little Love In Your Heart"

Joaquin Phoenix & Reese Witherspoon - "It Ain't Me Babe"

Brett Dennen - "Blessed"

Glee - "How Will I Know"

England Dan & John Ford Coley - "I'd Really Love To See You Tonight"

Wheat - "I Met A Girl"

Taylor Swift - "Forever and Always"

Jason Mraz - "Wordplay"

Kelly Clarkson - "Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You)"

The Avett Brothers - "I Would Be Sad"

"well my dad told me one day son, this girl will think of what she's done, and hurting you will be the first of many more regrets to come..& he said if she doesn't call that it's her fault, & it's her loss."

it was one of those weeks... hahaha happy to blah.

typical.