Stars

such a beautiful song.. if you haven't heard it..you need to listen right now!

Grace Potter & The Nocturnals - "Stars"

Go with him..

The Beatles - "Anna (Go With Him)"

For all these years I've wondered why every song with my name in it seems to have something to do with her breaking the boys heart..

but now I think I get it..

Maybe Anna means "indecisive" 

I'm not sure but I am sure that I no longer have a boyfriend..

but I didn't want to waste his time.. let's be honest.. 

I don't think all my wounds have been healed..but he was a great band aid in a time of need.

I just want to take a moment to thank him for everything he did for me.. Lord knows these past four months have been anything but easy..

I also want to wish him the best of luck with all of his dreams

and 

I hope that some cute little girl will come along and teach him to be the best that he can be.. and love him when he is at his worse.

Talk about a roller coaster ride!

It's alright! It's for the best!

I love y'all and I am so thankful for everything that has happened!

peace & love

I'll Fly Away, Oh Glory..

 Singing this hymn made me cry like a baby..this is where I lost it..

"I'll Fly Away"- Johnny Cash
"Just a few more weary days and then, I'll fly away, to a land where joy should never end..I'll fly away.."

here are some other songs they played that hit home with emotions of my grandpa..

"My Way" - Frank Sinatra
"And now the end is here..and so I face the final curtain call.."

 

"Moon River"- Frank Sinatra

"Two drifters off to see the world, there's such a lot of world to see, we're after the rainbows end, waiting round the bend, my huckleberry friend, moon river & me.."

Getting over this isn't going to be easy..but it will happen..some day!

Update

I happy to report that I am back in my college town..

I am also happy to report that Alabama beat LSU

the cutest thing happened after the game.. my pawpaw called my mom while we were all screaming and celebrating.. so when I answered I was screaming and I realized he was all choked up (emotional)..

he was so cute.. he told me that he was back in my Memaws room 

(who is only with us physically unless she is saying my name to the hospice nurses)  

but he was back there in her room watching the game..holding her hand..telling her we would win it

we would make it..we would beat them..

there were 5 things my Memaw loved more than life itself

1. God 2. Her Family 3. Alabama Football 4. Atlanta Braves 5. Sunflowers

I loved that story..just because of what has happened to my family this past week.

I have been so blessed.

I talked to my Grandma Friday night on the phone.. she sounded a little better..but it made me emotional..it made my dad emotional too..

However, after talking to my dad on the phone tonight while I was on the road back to school.. he called me once again to make sure I made it back safely.. 

Maybe this will bring us all back together..

God knows we need it.

peace & love

Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World

"May angels lead you in.."

I'll be missing you..

I received my first angel today.

My grandpa passed away last night in his sleep.. he was sitting in his chair.. as always.

That little lady in the picture, my Grandma, is the reason why I can't hold it together

everything she did was for him

everything.

what do you do when your everything is gone?

He was her first and only love.

I am happy to say through our ups and downs the last time I saw him was the best time.

He held my hand tightly and told me he was proud of all my accomplishments.

He had never said that to be before that moment.

I guess God knew.

He always does.

This is my first death to deal with so y'all bare with me.

It's not easy

and these emotions come in strong, almost tidal, waves.

As I have said many times before, be thankful.

I never expected to get that phone call this morning.

But I am thankful to be with my family now, and that I can keep a positive memory in my head about him.

And now I know I can talk to my Grandpa whenever.. I just have to ask for the big man upstairs ear and I know my Grandpa will be there standing beside him listening, watching, protecting all of us.

I love you Grandpa, and I am so glad you are finally peacefully resting with God..look out for us up there..