Sorry.

I've been distant

but I have something to make up for it.

Go read this article: How to Get Flat Abs, Have Amazing Sex and Rule the World in 8 Simple Steps

peace & love

-a

Practice What You Preach..

Hi!

I'm just sitting here by our AGP (above ground pool) and decided to write to y'all!

I haven't had much time in between school, work, and traveling to go see D but I am here now!

And now story time by Anna:

I'm not too shy to tell you that my family has issues.

My parents are no longer together, and most of the time they can't stay on the phone more than 5 minutes without yelling.

Sometimes you fall out of love, and never fall back in, making someone's faults all that you can see. 

So, us kids live with my Ma, and see our dad from time to time. 

I always call my dad when I'm on the road or when no one else will understand.

Anyway-

Lately some people on my fathers side have been trying to "preach" to my little brother something they have NEVER practiced.

and it is getting to the point where it is violating what I preach.

I want everyone to be happy and to love each other, but you DO NOT threaten my family, even if you're family. 

I'm stuck in this situation with a bunch of hypocrites but at what point do I become one? 

I honestly want to pick up my phone and tell them never to contact me again unless it has something to do with my father..

but where did the peace and love go?

These people that I am supposed to call family are acting FAR FROM IT. Basically if I can't help them in anyway they see no need in getting to know me. 

I would do anything for my family without one complaint but it's hard to put a smile on your face with a bunch of people who do not care about you or your well-being.

I've been fighting with myself all weekend about to say when my phone rings again. Maybe I just need to decide if telling them to delete my number and never contact me again is making the peace or if I just bite my lip and look peaceful on the outside.

Families should not have to act this way, and I should not have to have these thoughts. Sadly I know that my family isn't the only one going through this.

This is where I have to praise my amazing boyfriend who has stayed up and let me cry till 4 am (which is 5 his time) and then made sure I was okay the next day. He has offered to drive to come see me just for a few hours, and he has let me sort my head out without saying a word but he knows it helps me that he is just listening.

Why that boy puts up with me, I don't think I'll ever know but I love him very much because of it.

Anyway- That's my life speed bump right now.. I'll let you know how it goes!

peace & love

-A

wow.

oops!

Sorry!! I was a little busy with life but I am getting back into the blogging routine and I have SO MUCH exciting news!!!

1. I graduated college! 

(I officially have a degree in History)

2. D graduated from UGA

3. D's sister graduated high school

(with honors)

and... drum roll pleaseeee...

4. I GOT MY SECOND TATTOO!!

D held my hand the whole time and I'm so glad we got to share a very special moment to me.

I got "three little birds" because after the tornados in T-town I heard "Don't worry about a thing, cause every little thing is gonna be alright" and I knew that's what I wanted..

Then this past year I lost two grandparents.. 

my dad's dad

and 

my mom's mom

and in my memaws casket she picked out three birds with "I'll fly away" 

so there it is..

not worrying about a thing,  I've got my two grandparents flying, and my sweet boyfriend was there with me and loving every minute of it.

I'm so obsessed with it! I cried talking to D about it on the way there! I'm so happy!!

(and he loves it too!)

alright that's a brief update!! I'll continue to blog from now on!!

PROMISE!!

Absent

I've heard distance makes the heart grow fonder..

so did it work?

lol sorry school, spring break, and my sweetheart (trying to keep the 's' trend lol) have kept me distracted!

lots & lots to talk about so where to begin!

Well! I went to see D for Spring Break & it was relaxing for the first part! Then my friend Ash came to visit so I was more focused on making sure she was having a good time then me & D.. (my bad)
but needless it say it was a blast! & I had my first brewery experience! It was AWESOME!! Also, I spent my first Easter away from my family but I got to spend it with a good substitute! Plus it was my first sunrise service on top of A MOUNTAIN at that! Let's just say my adventurous side came out this past week and it was so much fun!

In boring news.. 3 of the 4 people that have worked with my the longest are no longer going to be working :( one of them had their last night while I was there and I literally had to make him leave before I started crying (all my big brothers are gone)!!!!! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!? ALL NEW PEOPLE EXCEPT ONE! AAHHHHHHAHAHAHAHHHHHHH!!!! (I'm freaking...can you tell?!)

Also, Mondays and Fridays in April I get to keep the cutest little baby ever! So that's exciting!

Anyway! I'm about to go hang with my mentee then chapter then school stuff but I wanted y'all to know I'm still here!

I'll leave you with pictures!

Me & Ash at the Brewery! 

Easter Sunday!

some of D's fam after the climb down the mountain

On top of the Mountain after the service!

little talks

I got to spend a romantic week with my boyfriend and I'm so thankful for him! We needed that week together, long distance is rough!

I was scared that having him for so long would make him being gone that much WORSE but actually this part is going to be easy.. I go a week without seeing him & then it's my spring break..then I am going to visit him again in two weeks then my last formal, and our graduations!

We've got this!

I'm so lucky :)

here's some jams for ya! Happy Monday!

Good News. Good Weekend.

Hello!
This weekend was my sororities parents weekend and it was a blast! My mom came down Friday night and we decided this weekend we would go to places she had never been to before since this is my "last" year (as an undergrad).
It has been a very successful weekend!
Bear turned one!
I've had so much yummy food!
I bought a hat! (which I usually avoid because I have a huge head)
&&

best news for last:

D IS COMNG EARLY!!!
his trip to Vegas got complicated (and I know he is bummed) but I am SO excited :)!!!

alright! I'm off to spend some more time with my ma before she leaves!

ttfn

peace & love

A

hello xx

I'm sorry for being a sketch

this past week has been anything but simple..

however I AM BACK and with a NEW BLOG LAYOUT/TITLE

woah!

update on me..

I was super nervous because I had to go to my placement for my Special Education class this week (Wednesday & today) and I wasn't really sure what to expect..but I knew that this would make or break my decision of becoming a teacher.

I'm happy to report that it has been amazing so far and I can't wait to go back on Wednesday! I think I may even consider specializing in Social Studies and Special Education!!!

more info later.. I'm literally falling asleep!

peace & love

-A

my apologies

I had three test today and I have been in a cave but now I have seen the light! I am free until next time!!!

updates:

I am an official iPhone user! and it has been the best change I have ever made with a phone! I am so excited my battery is always dying (I'm obsessed)
D sent me flowers yesterday and it was the sweetest little thing ever.. he has been so wonderful after his last visit here.. on top of me complaining about my test..he has had to listen to me boo-hoo cry about life and everything else and I just want to give him credit when credit is do.. he is a trooper.

anyway my weeks look a lot better from here on out so I promise to be a better blogger after I rest up

peace & love

A

sweet sunday

hello hello!

I've been working on school stuff since D left.
but we had an absolutely wonderful weekend.

he got me this beautiful ring! and it fit (which is odd!)!!! I was so surprised! Happy Valentine's Day to me!

I don't really know how to explain everything
but I am one VERY happy girl.
and that is all that matters..

all is right in the world.. & I'm off to read!

peace & love

cough cough

woke up and couldn't breathe

so I went to the doctor..

4 prescriptions 2 shots (one on each hip)  & $85 later...

still not feeling 100% but I am hoping I get there by Thursday/Friday

D said he probably won't be able to come till Friday so.. that gives me some time to clean and feel better

Anyway- I'm off to the grocery store & to start reading

Hope your Monday is going a whole lot better than mine lol!

peace & love

A

sick & tired of being sick & tired

soo..

I'm kinda sorta sick
and I kinda sorta don't have a voice..
so working as a waitress in a crowded restaurant was not ideal for this weekend..
but I made it..

In other news Bear decided to tell me I wasn't spending enough time with him by going number 2 on my bed not once but twice.. on the pillow next to me..

I am happy to report that I applied the "fool me once, shame on you..fool me twice, shame on me" rule and he is now sleeping in his crate for at least a week..

why so long?
because I don't want to have to do laundry every day this week before D gets here..
which is only 5 days away..

haven't talked to him much because of work..
but maybe today it will be different.

anyway! I'm going to go try to get ready & go reward myself for making it to the end of this week.

Have a happy happy Sunday!

peace & love

A

 Beyonce - "Love On Top"

 

One fine day...

hello hello!

so I have to update y'all because we had a moment last night.

I don't know about you, but I am SO SICK of being the doormat in every situation..so I decided to brush myself off and not allow people to walk all over me anymore.

Last night I finally stood up for what I wanted and although it may be hard to believe.. I GOT IT.

So this is my call out to you..
STOP letting people walk all over you
ASK for what you want
IF you don't get it
AT LEAST you know you tried

and as some wise song lyrics once told me.. "you can't always get what you want..but if you TRY SOMETIMES you just might find.. you get what you need."

SO GO TO GETTING WHAT YOU NEED.

I double dog dare you.

In other news.. 7 short days away from what I am calling V/D-day
V-day because Valentines day (and I can call it that if D shows up)
D-day if D doesn't show up ....

lol..get it? (uh um.. pardon me..my history nerdness is showing)

alright- I love y'all! Hope you're having a great Friday!
I'm off to support my shopping addiction!

peace & love

A

Monday Monday...

hello!
I have been super productive today so I'm feeling MUCH much better about life!
Woke up, went to the gym, ate a yummy breakfast, sent my mom the bible verse for today, got quarters, bought yummy healthy groceries, now I'm reading & doing laundry until I head out to dinner with my bff Layken !!!!

Pretty calm week for me this week..other than reading..so that's good! I work this Saturday but that's about all the events I've got going.

Hope your week is as peaceful as I plan on mine being.

peace & love

A

"I will love you, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold." Pslam 18:1,2

slow dancing in a burning room..

he picked up the phone.
but I'm still not convinced.

it's going to take a huge effort on his part to undo the damage that is done.

in other news I have taken this opportunity to open up my eyes.

I'm having 3 new love affairs.

1.God
2. (healthy) Food
3. Gym

and I bought this book today on my kindle until my hard copy comes in:

 I'm really excited about this!!!
I'll let y'all know how it goes!

off to read some more!

peace & love

A

I've never heard silence quite this loud

now I'm standing alone.

terrible. terrible. terrible. week.

Bombed my first test due to emotional distractions.

Miscommunications suck.

I'm gonna bounce back.
but I need you to pick up the phone. man up.
not being able to deal with confrontation isn't going to work here.

anyway.
HUGE shout out to all my friends for keeping my head up for me (if it wasn't for y'all I'd be seeing a lot of sidewalk) love you all so much. just a small speed bump

as my friend Audra once told me in my old tree house
"you gotta be happy with yourself before anyone else can be happy with ya."

happy saturday.

peace & love

A

terrible tuesday

just call me negative nancy..

last night D fell asleep so we didn't get to talk and this morning was two minutes long. not kidding.

I'm two days away from seeing him but this is getting to me.

he told me today that I needed to leave on Sunday. I was planning on leaving Monday.

not a good day.
it may be silly to you.
but I'm still livid. & going to the gym didn't even help or retail therapy.

Sweet Sixteen..

my sweet little baby sister is 16 today..

I cried this morning..

my mom always says that she is "ours" because I helped raise her..
hope I did an okay job..

It literally feels like yesterday that I was turning 16..

Anyway.. I know she is going to have a wonderful birthday..but look out world! M is able to drive by herself... and I'm freaking out..

anyway.. I'm headed back to my college town to write my two papers that are due tomorrow (lol..no time like the last minute)

peace & love

A

I want to be on the road that leads to awesome!

please watch this..

I may watch it everyday just to get me motivated!

Valentine

soo.. I know it's a little early..but D asked me what I wanted for Valentines Day..and I finally found some things..

but last night this idea came to me in a dream..lol and I just ordered it for him!

get it?

He's from Georgia..so I'll be his peach wherever we go.. 

& I'm from Alabama so he'll be my sweet home..

(Georgia peaches & Sweet Home Alabama..everyone on the same page now?)

and the quarters are the state quarters for each..

it may be cheesy but I think it's perfect for this long distance relationship!

EEK!!!

I'm off to be more excited!!!

HAPPY SUNDAY!

peace & love

A

Fun Friday!

what's up y'all?!

I started off my morning with a nice little jog around the neighborhood with my favorite running bud Bear!
Then I went and got my haircut! I'm only posting a picture on here because I know D can't find it and I want it to be a surprise for his birthday!
My stylist and I literally talked about shoes for 30 minutes so I obviously had to go shopping after my new trim! I found the PERFECT denim shirt & two pairs of smoker slippers (all for $50)!!! I'm obsessed and now I have the ideal traveling outfit to go see D so I won't look grungy on his actual birthday (Thursday).

I also got to hang with my ladies tonight..

we sang t-swift, ate ice cream & popcorn..then watched a little of Brave!! (the perks of babysitting)

In other news my little sister, M, is turning 16 on MONDAY! Where did the time go?! I literally think I am going to cry.

Anyway that's all for now..working all day tomorrow so I'll need my beauty rest ;) hope y'all had a successful Friday too!!

peace & love

A

last work weekend!

hair cut tomorrow
babysitting tomorrow night
double on saturday!

AH!
7 days hurry up!

greetings!

this is how I woke up this morning ^ yes.. that is Bear laying on my back like it's not a problem he is saying "Oh, I'm sorry Ma.. were you sleeping? Your back is just so comfy and warm..I know I have the whole rest of your bed but this really is just my fave spot..MORNING!"

how precious huh?

anyway.. today I've been looking at colleges with masters programs in GA.. lol..silly I know..

hope you're having a great day..
I'm going to bed

peace & love

A

blah

today was not good.

I was greeted with not so great news about my weight this morning when I got on the scale..

I hate to admit this but I cried the whole way to class.

D couldn't say anything right.. even though I know he was trying.

Why is it that after one week of dieting I expect it to just all fall off and me see instant results?

Probably because I have been STARVING for the past week..and instead of losing weight I GAINED IT. how in the free world does that happen!?

It's ok. I'm over it now..but my goodness today was such a rough day..and all the skinny people decided to come to class/walk in front of me all day.

Dieting is tough..but after a very drawn out conversation with D I have decided to keep it up even though he insist that it is stupid for me to be doing it to begin with.

In other news my little brothers car was keyed in the high school parking lot today..with a not very nice word written on it...my mom is ready to pounce..I have never heard her in such a "mom mode" tone before about Z.. and I wasn't even the one who did it. Lord help the kids that did.

Anyway.. prayers & strength are getting me through to D's birthday (9 more days)

hope everyone had a better day than the one I just witnessed 

but you know what Eric Hutchinson says, "you gotta hit rock bottom if you want to come out on top"

so here goes nothing, dusting myself off and climbing to the top.

I'll let y'all know how it goes.

stay golden.

peace & love

A

Manic Monday!

Hello!
My Monday started off bright and early due to that handsome young pup in my pictures..so I decided since I was up I would hit the gym.. and target.. and then the mall..
I bought some new makeup by e.l.f and I have to say I am in love and it is SUPER cheap (R told me about this stuff so kudos to her) also I bought two new outfits for my trip to Athens, Madison's birthday present (she'll be 16 in a week), new moisturizer, and eye cream(trying to get rid of my dark circles). Anyway! I'm off to do more reading but I hope that your Monday has been as productive as mine!
10 more days of me complaining about waiting to see D!

peace & love

A

Sunday Funday (ha)

Well hi there!!

 as you can see my day has been filled with the excitement of a new candle & health food!
I also am starting to drift into my "Belle" character (Beauty and the Beast) my nose is ALWAYS in a book..but sadly it's for school not for pleasure! However, I am starting to become bffs with my new Kindle Fire HD so that's awesome!
Anyway this is a busy week & I am kinda glad! Lots of reading and a paper due this week then a test next Thursday! Then a reward of seeing D! Thank goodness!

His Falcons lost today so his fweelings are hurted. :( poor phing.
but the rest of his birthday gifts came in so I am relieved.. hopefully he will like one of them.. lol

anyway!
I am off to read more of my book..

have a great rest of your Sunday!

peace & love

A

Wildflowers

hello hello!
woke up this morning to enjoy a nice concert from the lovely Nick Santino

it obviously made my day :)
anyway! I am blogging now because I work tonight and I've really started to enjoy doing this! Even if it's just for myself to read later on!

I get to see D in 12 days!!! That's only 4 days of classes and 3 work shifts away! Not too bad! I am so ready to see him (can you tell?!) but we have decided to call each other in the morning and at night.. So he's the first & last voice I hear every night (cheesy I know) but it kinda makes me feel better!

Anyway I hope y'all have a wonderful Saturday! I am off to make money for my travels!

peace & love

A

p.s.- Nick covered this song today and I really just love it.. so enjoy!

 Tom Petty - "Wildflowers"

"you belong among the wildflowers, you belong somewhere close to me, far away from your trouble and worry, you belong somewhere you feel free"

Workaholic

I made it safely home!
I know everyone was sitting on their seat SUPER worried about my safe travels! (ha!)
anyway!
today was eventful..

work was busy (yay!)
but our new computer system stresses me out to the MAX.. I feel like a new kid but I've been there for almost TWO YEARS..

bleh

13 days away from seeing D and I could not be any more excited (he's finally allowing himself to show emotions so I now know he is excited too lol)

I got my nails done.. went to dinner..now I'm hanging out at my house

FINALLY I got to see Les Miserables

obsessed with the song "Do You Hear The People Sing"

pretty cool film!

waking up at 6 am is starting to hit me..
but I have full intentions on waking up to watch Nick Santino (from A Rocket To The Moon) sing to me via the computer at 10 am while I lay in bed (so I kinda get to say Nick sang to me in my room) lol!!!
I'm excited!
Private concert with 49 other people (pretty cool!)

Anyway I'm out

stay golden

peace & love

A

snoww dayyy

well.. IT SNOWED..

 

I was super pumped except for the fact that I had class ALL DAY! & then they canceled classes..AFTER I WAS FINISHED.

lol..

anyway I am up LATE because I am SUPER STRESSED about driving home tomorrow for work.. there have been a lot of wrecks and I can only control MY DRIVING..but I plan on leaving here around 7 so maybe there won't be too many people on the road and I can be really safe! 

14 days until I see D..

4 work shifts

4 days of classes

1 hair cut

I can do this..just gotta set check points so I realize I'm making progress!

anyway!

say a little prayer for me driving tomorrow on those SCARY roads!

stay golden!

peace & love 

A

busy little bee..

soo.. today was not that bad..
OH
other than the fact that I had to visit the doctor today...and not my family doctor..
no worries everyone "everything looks great" lol..awkward.
& my mentoring meeting taking an hour & a half
& the fact that things are changing left & right in my sorority and although I am one for change..it makes my head spin.

In other news I have made plans with my basically life long friend Jessie this Friday. As I like to think nothing like a spa day/ bar night to get me prepared for another visit to see D! Only 15 more days! HOLY HECK!

We also received news that it may SNOW tomorrow! Only down side to that is if classes get cancelled so does our date party (that I'm flying solo to btw).

I did however make it to the gym & felt great until I got home & I was STARVING!
R and I have decided that we are going to seriously reward ourselves if we make it two weeks! (what's one night of splurge?!)

Anyway..here's to me going to read & hoping the roads don't freeze over so I can make it to work Friday!

stay golden!

peace & love

A

Day 2

soo today was not only freezing & rainy outside but it was also awkward day for A..

let me tell ya.. I was scoring major points on the awkward scale..

1st-my stomach was growling SO LOUD in my second class today & it would not stop (and of course the class was SILENT!)
2nd- my professor asked us to go around the room and say our names..well it got to my row and I thought there were only 2 people in front of me..but there was actually 3 and I COMPLETELY cut off the girl before me by shouting my name...gah...
3rd - I saw a high school friend while walking home and there was a boy in front of him so I waved to my friend but the boy in front of him waved to me too..lol..

so that is my rainy awkward day story for y'all.. just so I have proof the next time someone tries to tell me I'm not awkward.

D had the same problem last week when his "something you're happy about" comment was that he was happy about Alabama winning the National Championship game and his professor is a Notre Dame fan..hahaha..

Not the best way to start the semester but we will get through this together..one awkward moment at a time.

Hope everyone is having a great week..tomorrow I head to the doctor for my check up..WOO!

stay golden!

peace & love

A

rainy monday...

goodness.. I promise to be a better blogger at some point..but I am trying to finish Season 6 of Gossip Girl..so my time is consumed..but don't you worry none.. I am taking notes :)

lately life's been the same..
my friend Layken  calls her boyfriend "B" because that's the letter his name starts with so I'm thinking I will call Dustin "D" from now on..lol..I think it's cute (and doesn't take as long to type)

so anyway..right now D and I are trying to figure out how this long distance thing is going to work..
seeing each other once a month should be fine..but I'm afraid that is not going to be enough (especially with this cold weather right now! I need to snuggle!) We are hoping we only go 2-3 weeks without seeing each other & I have requested that we talk on the phone AT LEAST once a day.. skype would be ideal but D has yet to download it.. (guess I should bring that up later)!

My roommate & I are on a new health kick.. ("R" is going to be her letter..) We went grocery shopping today for an HOUR...goodness me.. and spent a little less $100 each (why is health food so expensive!?) but I am going to keep y'all updated on that too.. (I get cranky without my chips & chicken fingers!!) I am also hitting the gym again (3 times a week for now)

Why the new health kick? New Years Resolution? No no.. I am headed to see D in TWO VERY LONG WEEKS for his 24th birthday and I want to look fabulous!

So I won't admit it to him..but he is my inspiration to get it together & get in shape.. and now every time I want to go eat a whole bag of bbq chips I am going to blog & distract myself.

Anyway-

stay golden!

peace & love

-A

"if two people are meant to be together eventually they'll find their way back" - gossip girl :) 

 My apologies..

but this handsome young man has walked back into my life and I have been a little distracted

but I promise when we are apart I am all yours :)

I heard this quote on the most recent episode of Gossip Girl that I watched and I found it to be very fitting.. 

anyway

other than my special someone in my life everything has been the same

except for the fact that I am on cloud nine..and not going anywhere..

xoxo

-A

sometimes I wonder if having someone is worth all the hype.

they only seem to let you down.

I'm over the disappointments in life.

& I think I need stability.

 

Eric Hutchinson - "Breakdown More"

"I can't keep my beat when I don't have you.. I can't shake my sins when you won't come through.."

saying goodbye..

this one has been much harder than the first

In The Garden - Elvis

I come to the garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses, and the voice I hear falling on my ear
The Son of God discloses.

Stars

such a beautiful song.. if you haven't heard it..you need to listen right now!

Grace Potter & The Nocturnals - "Stars"

Go with him..

The Beatles - "Anna (Go With Him)"

For all these years I've wondered why every song with my name in it seems to have something to do with her breaking the boys heart..

but now I think I get it..

Maybe Anna means "indecisive" 

I'm not sure but I am sure that I no longer have a boyfriend..

but I didn't want to waste his time.. let's be honest.. 

I don't think all my wounds have been healed..but he was a great band aid in a time of need.

I just want to take a moment to thank him for everything he did for me.. Lord knows these past four months have been anything but easy..

I also want to wish him the best of luck with all of his dreams

and 

I hope that some cute little girl will come along and teach him to be the best that he can be.. and love him when he is at his worse.

Talk about a roller coaster ride!

It's alright! It's for the best!

I love y'all and I am so thankful for everything that has happened!

peace & love

I'll Fly Away, Oh Glory..

 Singing this hymn made me cry like a baby..this is where I lost it..

"I'll Fly Away"- Johnny Cash
"Just a few more weary days and then, I'll fly away, to a land where joy should never end..I'll fly away.."

here are some other songs they played that hit home with emotions of my grandpa..

"My Way" - Frank Sinatra
"And now the end is here..and so I face the final curtain call.."

 

"Moon River"- Frank Sinatra

"Two drifters off to see the world, there's such a lot of world to see, we're after the rainbows end, waiting round the bend, my huckleberry friend, moon river & me.."

Getting over this isn't going to be easy..but it will happen..some day!

Update

I happy to report that I am back in my college town..

I am also happy to report that Alabama beat LSU

the cutest thing happened after the game.. my pawpaw called my mom while we were all screaming and celebrating.. so when I answered I was screaming and I realized he was all choked up (emotional)..

he was so cute.. he told me that he was back in my Memaws room 

(who is only with us physically unless she is saying my name to the hospice nurses)  

but he was back there in her room watching the game..holding her hand..telling her we would win it

we would make it..we would beat them..

there were 5 things my Memaw loved more than life itself

1. God 2. Her Family 3. Alabama Football 4. Atlanta Braves 5. Sunflowers

I loved that story..just because of what has happened to my family this past week.

I have been so blessed.

I talked to my Grandma Friday night on the phone.. she sounded a little better..but it made me emotional..it made my dad emotional too..

However, after talking to my dad on the phone tonight while I was on the road back to school.. he called me once again to make sure I made it back safely.. 

Maybe this will bring us all back together..

God knows we need it.

peace & love

Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World

"May angels lead you in.."

I'll be missing you..

I received my first angel today.

My grandpa passed away last night in his sleep.. he was sitting in his chair.. as always.

That little lady in the picture, my Grandma, is the reason why I can't hold it together

everything she did was for him

everything.

what do you do when your everything is gone?

He was her first and only love.

I am happy to say through our ups and downs the last time I saw him was the best time.

He held my hand tightly and told me he was proud of all my accomplishments.

He had never said that to be before that moment.

I guess God knew.

He always does.

This is my first death to deal with so y'all bare with me.

It's not easy

and these emotions come in strong, almost tidal, waves.

As I have said many times before, be thankful.

I never expected to get that phone call this morning.

But I am thankful to be with my family now, and that I can keep a positive memory in my head about him.

And now I know I can talk to my Grandpa whenever.. I just have to ask for the big man upstairs ear and I know my Grandpa will be there standing beside him listening, watching, protecting all of us.

I love you Grandpa, and I am so glad you are finally peacefully resting with God..look out for us up there.. 

Ok...so y'all know I have a boy band problem..
but these boys will always hold the key to my heart..
and I love their new single!

(all the backgrounds that they pose in front of are their album covers from over the years.. SO CUTE.)

enjoy.

McFly- Love Is Easy

well...

Sorry I'm a terrible blogger..

but here's what I have learned while I haven't been blogging.

1. I need a roommate for next year

2. I am 3 test and 2 papers away from being done with History classes as an undergrad (are those angels I hear singing?)

3. I am not very tough when it comes to a 5 year old girl crying

4. I am never buying dog supplies from ebay again

5. I have the best friends  I could ask for

6. I also have the best family

7. I have a lot to be thankful for..

and number seven is the one that I have really been trying to stress to those around me..

last night while on the phone someone was complaining about how after a week (and a few rare occurrences) there was no car in the driveway for said person..

and I had to stop them in the middle of talking.

some people don't even have enough money to afford gas to put in the car..

some don't even know what driving a car is like.

I told this person that they should be thankful that they even have the opportunity to be upset about not getting a car this week.

so let's be thankful.

it's fall..

almost thanksgiving..

so be thankful you have a car

be thankful you have an opportunity to go to college

be thankful you have a HIGH SCHOOL diploma

and if all else fails

be thankful you woke up

be thankful you're breathing

be thankful you have access to a computer to read this blog (hahah just kidding)

but seriously

don't take anything for granted.

I keep stressin that but it becomes more and more obvious with every life lesson that comes about. 

You're my song..

"my sweet home Alabama, I can sing you all night long..you're my red red wine..learning to fly..baby we were born to run..cause you're my song.."

OH. MY. GOSH.

A Rocket To The Moon.

I am OBSESSED!! This is amazing..and it helps that he mentions the beatles, sweet home Alabama, and born to run..!!

HAPPY FRIDAY!!

enjoy!

A Rocket To The Moon - You're My Song

It's fine by me if you never leave..

love this song

busy week ahead!

I get to see Layken tomorrow! Woo!

In other news I have a TON of stuff to do tonight and instead I'm blogging.

What can you do?

I want each & every one of you to take this second

RIGHT NOW

to think about something that you're thankful for today.

got it?

did it make you smile? 

I hope so. 

I think that's going to be my new project..

thinking of something to be thankful for everyday and taking a moment to appreciate it.

so I won't be saying to myself " you don't know what you've got till it's gone"

well I think that's all for now

peace & love

Working Weekend

so I came home to work this weekend...

funny thing about college students.. we spend WAY too much money on things that we shouldn't..haha but it's all worth it in the end right?!

 I haven't even informed Jessie that I am in town (sorry Jess..I'll be back for fall break)

Alabama won! Yay!

Auburn is winning as of now (yay?)

I love all of you so much and I promise to blog more this week cause I'm going to have to be writing papers all week which calls for me being on my computer! 

peace & love

Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you've got till it's gone

I woke up to some heart breaking news this morning..

one of my ZTA sisters moms lost her battle last night to cancer.

Molly also graduated high school with me and Zeta had a special place in her heart because her mom had breast cancer & that is our philanthropy. 

Molly IS SUCH a good person & her mother was too.. I hate that bad things happen to good people..but I'm convinced God was running out of angels and Molly's mom was the best pick out of all of us here on Earth.

My mom also worked with you mom at the local elementary school.

I called my mom crying my eyes out yesterday (because I found out her mom relapsed)

and

I called my mom today crying my eyes out more because I had found out she passed away.

Molly is an only child.

That being said.. I just wanted to remind myself to be thankful of my healthy mom & also be thankful of my siblings..

I'm not sure that they know I love them..but this is my new goal.. appreciating what I've got..

anyway on a brighter note 

I'm off to ATL

for this little princesses birthday

wish me luck!

peace & love

Monday...

soo.. it's Monday.. 

& I wanted to blog now because I know this week is about to get CRAZY.

anyway this weekend was AMAZING :) I got to spend it with almost all my favorites at one point or another and I could not be more blessed to have amazing friend

this weekend I am headed to Atlanta with Robin & some of the ZTA group for our friend Shannon's 21st birthday! She's the baby of the group (and has already graduated college... overachiever)

hopefully I will have pictures later for y'all 

but until then I am off.

Wednesday is my big day.. 

First test

First time I meet the kindergartener that I am mentoring this semester

EEK 

peace & love

one look at that smile

and I'm all yours.

will you just smile at me again?

so happy lately.. too good to be true almost.

Tuesday.

been thinking about a lot of things lately.. but yeah. 

how do we feel about this hair cut on me? I'm thinking yes.

Friday the 13th

so I am the most superstitious person. ever.

and usually I avoid this day like it is going out of style

but

not today

and I am so thankful

I'm thankful for a lot this week.

:)

Smashmouth - "I'm A Believer" 

"I thought love was only true in fairy tales.. meant for someone else but not for me"